If it weren't for my sisters and my family sometimes, I don't know where I would be. My head isn't in the right place today. I was up all night with contractions, back and hip pain, nightmares and dehydration. I woke up today feeling anxious and with a splitting headache. For some reason, something is off in my body and I'm not sure what it is, or how to fix it. I feel alone in this battle.
My day came to a close last night tied with a pretty little bow I like to call, "the awkward 60 seconds of realization at a gas station in Braidwood". I just wasn't ready for that. I feel like everything is happening so fast, this entire month of May has been one big giant whoosh that I can barely see. June will be even faster than that. I don't feel prepared. I'm sure this is normal, but still.
I have two doctor's appointments today, and as soon as I'm done I am going to go somewhere. I don't know where yet. Just somewhere. Maybe the beach? The nasty, disgusting "beaches" of Chicago? Bleh. It's the only thing I could think of. I need to relax for a few hours. Hopefully I'll snap out of this soon. Maybe I need a nap.
But really- I can't believe my littlest sister is almost eleven. Crazy.